Hi my name is Bre <3 I am 16
120 lbs but trying to get down to 105lbs <3 I don't have an eating disorder but I think I might have one by the time this journey is over.. I dont want one but if I have to have one by the time this journey is over than I will deal will it.
I AM WAY ON MY TO BECOMING THINNER THAN I AM. WHEN I SIT DOWN MY THIGHS BECOME HUGE OR WHEN I WALK I CAN SEE THE SHAKE. I HAVE A POUCH ON MY STOMACH AND LINES WHERE MY BELLY ROLLS OVER. IT DISGUST ME AND I HATE THIS FEELING. LOOSING THIS WEIGHT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY AND FINALLY BE HAPPY ABOUT SOMETHING IN MY LIFE. I JUST WANNA BE PERFECT- "BLACK SWAN" <3 (TH)INSPIRATION: NATALIE PORTMAN IN BLACK SWAN :)
I love giving people advice so come to me for anything..I like to talk to people to so if you wanna talk hit me up <3
My Progress= Progress
26128) I finally told my best friend and telling her made my problem more real than ever. For some reason, I now feel like she motivates me to eat less. Now that someone finally knows and is watching, I have to be more perfect. Telling her just made me slip deeper into this thing and I can’t get out.
Colbie Caillat taught me that love is real. Greenday taught me that government’s gonna fail someday.Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through. Travis taught me to be generous. Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right. 30 Seconds to Mars taught me to speak whats on my mind. Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me. Music taught me to live.♥
I wish I was one of those pretty girls. The ones who get all the guys looking at her as she walks past. The one who could get any guy she wanted. The one who wakes up looking beautiful, effortlessly. The one with the flawless skin, the pretty eyes, the gorgeous hair and the perfect figure. One of those girls who live their life with confidence. I wish I was one of those girls, but I’m not. I’m just me. I am disgusting.
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9321.) I feel so useless and worthless all the time. All my friends are moving forward with their lives and enjoying themselves and I’m stuck here in this hole. I can’t keep a good relationship, I’m miserable every day, and even when I’m surrounded by people that love me, I still feel alone. I just wish I could be like them… Not care what others are thinking about you, have the confidence to get the girl, be able to wake up and not feel like you’re hideous and a waste of space, not hate everything about yourself. I just want to be them.
Have you ever laid on your bed at night, and just cried? Cried because you’re ugly. Because you’re not good enough. You counted all your flaws from head to toe, to punish and feel worse about yourself. Cried because the comments people blurt out, actually hurt your feelings. Cried because your family is dysfunctional. You don’t want to be a burden, so you bottled it all up. Around people, you’re the happiest ray of sun shine. But nobody knows, that at night when you’re alone, you break down and just cry.
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